I want to be so damn hopeful that this is the year we finally see a female president. I want to be so damn hopeful that we don’t endure 4 more years of escalating homophobia, transphobia, discrimination, misogyny, etc.

But I’m scared.

Because we never know the outcome until that day. I never thought he would win before, and he did. I remember that night vividly. I sobbed.

I’m scared.

Because I cannot comprehend that there are women who will actively support the oppressor, an actual sexual predator. I cannot comprehend that there are people who will willingly support a criminal. I cannot comprehend that there are people willing to support someone who has said out loud that he wants to be dictator.

I’m scared.

Because if he were to win, I truly think that I would figure out how to leave the country and leave behind every single person I love. I already am so worried about raising my son in this country, especially once he reaches school age and having to worry about if he’ll even make it home from school, let alone the terrible education in the state we currently live in.

I’m scared.

Because I want to see a world where women, LGBTQ, and BIPOC don’t have to worry surviving. Where women can make their own medical decisions without the government being in the room with them. Where LGBTQ youth aren’t afraid to be themselves, for fear of abuse, bullying, discrimination, or worse. Where BIPOC people can know that the police are here to protect them too, not fear for their lives if police are present.

I’m just fucking scared.

I have large dreams for a better world. I don’t know if they’re possible, soon at least, but they’re far more realistic with a progressive woman at the helm.

Now, because we don’t idolize politicians around here, instead we hold them accountable, I am not a fan of how she has handled the desecration of Gaza. I think it’s also an unfortunate byproduct of this country and the alliances we have created that we are too scared to break for fear of retribution.

But my future is much safer as a queer, single mom under the office of Kamala Harris, than it is with the other candidate. I almost had a panic attack reading through the proposals of Project 2025, and am terrified my family would be nullified or attacked, being just me and my kid.

I’m scared, but I’m trying to be hopeful.

“What I want young women and girls to know is: You are powerful and your voice matters,” Harris told Marie Claire. “You’re going to walk into many rooms in your life and career where you may be the only one who looks like you or who has had the experiences you’ve had. But you remember that when you are in those rooms, you are not alone. We are all in that room with you applauding you on. Cheering your voice. And just so proud of you. So you use that voice and be strong.”

Guess we’ll see…

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